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| Monday, February 08, 2010 at 1:53 PM |
 I’ve given up on giving up slowly I’m blending in so you won’t even know me Apart from this whole world that shares my fate This one last bullet you mention It’s my one last shot at redemption Cause I know to live you must give your life away And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity And I’ve been locked inside that house All the while you hold the key And I’ve been dying to get out And that might be the death of me And even though there’s no way of knowing Where to go I promise I’m going because… I gotta get out of here I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake I gotta get out of here And I’m begging you, I’m begging you, I’m begging you to be my escape I’ve given up on doing this alone now Guess I failed and I’m ready to be shown how You told me the way and now I’m trying to get there And this life sentence that I’m serving I admit that I’m every bit deserving But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity And I’ve been locked inside that house All the while you hold the key And I’ve been dying to get out And that might be the death of me And even though there’s no way of knowing Where to go I promise I’m going because… I gotta get out of here Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake (yeah) I gotta get out of here And I’m begging you, I’m begging you, I’m begging you to be my escape
I am a hostage to my own humanity Self-detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made And all I’m asking is for you to do what you can with me But I can’t ask you to give what you already gave. Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity And I’ve been locked inside that house All the while you hold the key And I’ve been dying to get out That might be the death of me And even though there’s no way of knowing Where to go I promise I’m going because… I gotta get out of here I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake I gotta get out of here And I’m begging you, I’m begging you, I’m begging you to be my escape
I fought you for so long I should have let you in Oh how we regret those things we do And all I was trying to do was save my own skin (oh) But so were you So were you |
Labels: goodbye gayness
I'll play for you.
 balloon mission is a success ! PERFORMANCE WAS GREAT TOO we did one hell of an awesome fun :D
I'll play for you.
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| Friday, February 05, 2010 at 10:07 AM |
.jpg) LATE NITE PRODUCTIONS with miss clyda  meet the future visual effects artist of DVE
was very proud of our cinematography assignment 2, got alot of good comments and stuffs :D and our 1st assignment we got an A !!! good job everyone, you all did a goood job. LATE NITE PRODUCTIONS hope you all like the little surprise i made for you all :P Labels: just hoping for something that might not even happen
I'll play for you.
was suddenly woke up from another 'nightmare' todaywell now the time is 6, 43am. there's been a number of things in my mind lately so i decided to switch on the laptop and blog.
i realised that i haven been a good director during the cinematography project, especially when having to get alvin really injured, i eflt very remorseful and guilty. i dont know why but i find that i was less focus this time, and perhaps that made some of you upset with my attitude and the way i want things work too. and for that ALVIN, JUNWEI, CAROLYN, SUZANNE, TINGRU AND JOYCES. i apologise to you all here. i am sorry ! I HOPE YOU GUYS WILL FORGIVE ME.
truthfully speaking, i regretted telling the truth that night, cause ever since i told you how i feel, things went for the worst, the next day you gave me remarks that made me feel that you do not want my presence near you neither do you want anything to do with me too i feel so lost, so hurt and so undescribable, many people tell me to let go but i cant, i really cant and for what reason i dont want to disclose it out. i dont know why are you treating me this way, its like as if i did something wrong to offend you when all i tried to do was just be there for you but you threw my concern away as if like some rubbish i feel terrible nowadays because there's many unhappy things going through in my life now and that i no longer have you to share my stories with anymore i feel so depressed because whenever i have sorrows i know i can count on you to cheer me up but now, its like well what can i say, things changed i know i did something that left you with a bad impression and i am really guilty and sorry for that you said we will not let this friendship stop regardless of the past but right now, i feel as though you do not treasure this friendship anymore its like you do not want me to be in your life to guide you anymore whenever you are lost but its the opposite that what you told me yourself last time all i wanted to was to just be there for you, make you smile and happy even if i had to be a complete retard but i guess whatever i do now wont even have the slightest of impact on you i might lose someone precious in my life soon and i seriously hope i wont lose you too i dont know if you will see this but if you do i sincerely hope that you will think about it because i know things are different now but i really hope you will really treat me as a normal friend like how you treat the others too dont shove me aside please ? Labels: the truth does hurts
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| Monday, February 01, 2010 at 11:19 PM |
 Labels: just like how it said
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| Sunday, January 31, 2010 at 10:33 AM |
NEW ADC SONG :Dsing to the tune of RASA SAYANG, the lyrics are created by JITSAN, jit khai and ikhsan. i added photos to make it more interesting.  WE ARE ADC  WE GO MAKAN KFC  WE GO EXPEDITION JUMP FROM CLIFFS  AND KAYAK IN THE SEA !  WE CAN ROCK CLIMBING  WE CAN ALSO KAYAKING  WE CAN ABSEIL, WE CAN PRUSSIK, WE CAN SWIM  EXCEPT FARIS !!! :D
best and funniest performance of the night, well i am still having problems uploading the videos and photos of commissioning night. so guess i need quite some time eh ? sorry to let you guys wait again! Labels: i gotta feeling
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| Saturday, January 30, 2010 at 3:28 PM |
 my little neighbour and her dog.
oh well when the photos for commissioning night are out, i will update a proper post again k ? well for now, just gonna keep training for taiwan trip :D and also preparing for projects and stuff ! HAHAHAHA well hope we can do it ! been kinda stress lately too, maybe its time i take things slowly now. if not i am rushing myself too much, keeping myself way tooo busy ! later will be out celebrating alastair's birthday so stay tune for my first singing performance video and photos for commissioning night too :D HAHAAHAHAH Labels: enjoy and take it easy
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| Wednesday, January 27, 2010 at 11:11 AM |
 rayson ah, i just mark your english just now ! and seriously your english CMI sia. go practise can anot ? i am not bored because you are entertaining me, but i am bored by your english -.- even my grandmother can write better than you :D see you like that score 1/5 only lei. which is a FAIL !!! go read up on more newspaper can ? cause your english seriously disgrace me, i feel disgusted to entertain someone with lousy english man -.- Labels: unexplainable change
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| Sunday, January 24, 2010 at 5:02 PM |
 what mingfei said here kinda touched me because this was what i said to her when she was down sometime ago. its just feels great when you have your words that you have given to people given back to you. and thanks to those who cheered me up for yesterday and today too !
yesterday night, we had the LAST SUPPER with ADC its sort of a last gathering with the 3rd year seniors. we ate sakura buffet at pasir ris, and after that, its time for the annoucement of who got into the sub committee and committee. congrats to those who got the roles :D
sub committee positions vice trekking captain - wei xuan vice climbing captain - khairul vice sea captain - edmund (me) vice secretary - lovell vice logistics - shidah vice ATC coordinators - fandy and yan zhuan
as for the committee positions, i forgotten who gets which position. but a very big congrats to BIG MAMMA for being the second first lady in our CCA !
what min said yesterday was seriously inspirational to me, and i can feel what he's trying to mean too. we really have to pull ourselves together regardless of race, skin colour and ability. we have to stick close together and be one CLUB ADC, learn from our seniors mistakes so that we wont make the same mistakes in the future too. so come'on guys, LETS ALE ALE AND MAKE US AN AWESOME CCA ALRIGHT ?!? because its impossible if its always one person who make the calls. so we need to voice it out together and push one another alright guys !!!
Labels: truths be told
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